How odd

 Something must be wrong isn't it. Monday I had this intense feeling of being overwhelmed. Took a day off to rest. 

Then yesterday, I felt I wanted to cry for no reason. 

Today I felt hopeless and exhausted. 

Just a month ago I experienced the same. 

Didn't help much when I had interviews to attend. 

I think I really messed up this time. 




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